Prayer

I could use prayer. As a new momma, as a young missionary, as a wife, and as a woman... 

We have had a lot of 'high' and 'low' moments on this journey to missions and it is such a blessing to see it all come together.  

But right now I could use prayer because I feel the stress and pressure. I am trying to balance a new baby that is under the weather (and even if he wasn't is constantly changing daily) the start of a cross wold move we been dreaming of for years, keeping a healthy relationshipwith my husband, learning to eat healthy and work out, and a good quiet time with my Lord.. 

As a woman I feel I need to be in control of it all and make it all work, while looking good...  what ridiculous expectations.

  We are hoping to apply for our visas right after Thanksgiving  (we just got ok from UK headquarters.) But in order for that to happen we have to show we are making progress on the last $525 we have to raise in monthly support,  gather all our official documents, figure out some moving details on both sides of the pond, and have a few conversations with some ppl at UK headquarters. Our GEM contact is checking back in 10 days for our progress. 

So I'm stressed and on top of it Stephen has a congestion and reflux issue - so he needs to eat less more often and has lots of phlegm he struggles with hacking and stuff... he is more fussy and wants to be cuddled all the time.  

I know Satan is throwing every last thing he has at us... it was spoken over us. So this isn't a suprise... what is is all the little attacks i feel aa a woman because of it.. the feeling of not being enough, not having it all together, not feeligible pretty or desirable because I spend my days covered with spit up on my shoulders and ink on my fingers... the constant and varied attacks are pulling at me... 

The prayer request on top of all that is I misplaced the folder that held all our documents along with Stephen's new ss card and passport. ... I've looked over every inch of this house and I can't find it. We need his passport and ss card to apply for visas. Please pray God reveals it's location to us. Pray we find it as it is easily around $500 worth of official copies and documents.. that would push back our timeline for visas and leaving.  

I think of the 3rd verse of Amazing Grace (which I sing to Stephen before bed each night).  The original verse is 

"Through many dangers, toils, and snares I have already come grace has brought me here this far andgl grace will bring me home"  

Later it was translated and a new verse took its place.

"The Lord has promised goof to me his word my hope secures he will my sheld and portion be as long as life endures" 

How beautiful that these two verses share that spot. How they are the other side of the same coin. Even through the snares he promises good. 

This is my prayer request - that grace carries us through these smares so we would know that HE is our shield and portion. 

Thanks

Megan