These are a few of my favorite things....
It has been such an amazing summer! Wow - so much has happened in these past few months it is sometimes hard to process it all.
We have gotten to spend some time with family and friends. Helped put a deck on my parents house and got to celebrate Eric's 31st birthday. (Don't mind the candles)
This summer we have also spent a lot of time praying and fasting over something very dear to me and that will impact everything going forward.
As many of you know our plan is to move in to Eric's parents house at the end of September as we prepare to leave for England. This helps us a lot because we won't have to worry about so many bills and can focus on getting ready to leave. It also makes it easier to have everything packed up in totes if we don't need to use it. Or to set things aside to sell in a moving sale. However, this brought up a big question... what about my job? As we prepare to move I will not be able to complete another school year.
Normally this time of the year I would be getting ready to set up my classroom. I would happily walk the isles in the stores that were filled with pencils and notebooks, and I would get excited over the fresh highlighters and neat folders. I would be preparing to spend hundreds of dollars on students who would become my main focus for the next 10 months. I would be settling in for 9-10 hour days of organizing and preparing lessons, meetings, and IEPs.
This was a concern for us - we won't need the paycheck as much because we will have less bills and we needed the time to finish fundraising and to pack up so we can leave sooner. The prayer became - 'God is it time to step away from Megan's job'. This was hard, honestly it still is, because it has been a part of who I am for so long. After lots of prayers we felt God directing us to take this next step of faith and walk away from my job. So now I am full time fundraising and connecting us with people and churches, along with packing, organizing, and planning everything that has to happen in the next few months.
As we continue to prepare to go serve in Somerset it has come time to leave behind this stage in our life. We are setting aside what we have had to move forward for what God has planned. . These have been hard steps. So many times our identity, whether we realize it or not, is tied to our home or profession, or if we are on the track poeple think we should be on. I've never been in the position before where I've been completely and only dependent on God for everything; every breath, every moment, every future step, not only in the spiritual but as well as in the practical sense.
As we have entered this new transition season I can say it is both equally terrifying and breathtakingly amazing. To have peace while being in emotional unrest at your realization that you are actually unable to control or sustain anything independently apart from Christ. When you remove your independence and your safety nets, when you set aside your pride and lay down the life you thought you wanted - when you die to the dreams and expectations that you and others have put on your life, whether consciously or not. That's when all you are left with, to stay upright every moment, to reach every future goal, to stay sane.... then you are left with faith... and where there is faith and dependence on God there is peace, hope, and joy... there is a way. Praise God that we get to live in faith... even when we have to live it a moment at at time or live it afraid. I know He will come through because He never let's go and there is power in the name of Jesus that we can't even fathom.
This summer we have also spent a lot of time praying and fasting over something very dear to me and that will impact everything going forward.
As many of you know our plan is to move in to Eric's parents house at the end of September as we prepare to leave for England. This helps us a lot because we won't have to worry about so many bills and can focus on getting ready to leave. It also makes it easier to have everything packed up in totes if we don't need to use it. Or to set things aside to sell in a moving sale. However, this brought up a big question... what about my job? As we prepare to move I will not be able to complete another school year.
Normally this time of the year I would be getting ready to set up my classroom. I would happily walk the isles in the stores that were filled with pencils and notebooks, and I would get excited over the fresh highlighters and neat folders. I would be preparing to spend hundreds of dollars on students who would become my main focus for the next 10 months. I would be settling in for 9-10 hour days of organizing and preparing lessons, meetings, and IEPs.
This was a concern for us - we won't need the paycheck as much because we will have less bills and we needed the time to finish fundraising and to pack up so we can leave sooner. The prayer became - 'God is it time to step away from Megan's job'. This was hard, honestly it still is, because it has been a part of who I am for so long. After lots of prayers we felt God directing us to take this next step of faith and walk away from my job. So now I am full time fundraising and connecting us with people and churches, along with packing, organizing, and planning everything that has to happen in the next few months.
As we continue to prepare to go serve in Somerset it has come time to leave behind this stage in our life. We are setting aside what we have had to move forward for what God has planned. . These have been hard steps. So many times our identity, whether we realize it or not, is tied to our home or profession, or if we are on the track poeple think we should be on. I've never been in the position before where I've been completely and only dependent on God for everything; every breath, every moment, every future step, not only in the spiritual but as well as in the practical sense.
As we have entered this new transition season I can say it is both equally terrifying and breathtakingly amazing. To have peace while being in emotional unrest at your realization that you are actually unable to control or sustain anything independently apart from Christ. When you remove your independence and your safety nets, when you set aside your pride and lay down the life you thought you wanted - when you die to the dreams and expectations that you and others have put on your life, whether consciously or not. That's when all you are left with, to stay upright every moment, to reach every future goal, to stay sane.... then you are left with faith... and where there is faith and dependence on God there is peace, hope, and joy... there is a way. Praise God that we get to live in faith... even when we have to live it a moment at at time or live it afraid. I know He will come through because He never let's go and there is power in the name of Jesus that we can't even fathom.
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